I need to get my own email address. Right now I’m stealing Tash’s university account, but that won’t be active after September. Better change it fast. And I know some of you are probably wondering about the name, but Smith was already used.
So I ran around the Library trying to find someone to talk to – anyone really. I had something I needed to talk about. But everyone is busy. Its depressing.
First I went to find Phoenixia, because I was close to the Zord hanger, and didn’t want to walk too far. But she wasn’t there. I went round the whole Library for half an hour. Then I went past Jess’s room and heard them both…occupied. Not sure who with…
Anyway. I ran back to the Leader’s office, to try and find Hati. But she’d already left back to real life. Then I went to find Lily, because I thought she’d understand. But I forgot to knock before I went into the room…turns out they were also occupied.
That was more of them than I ever needed to see…
So then I went to find Tash, because…well…she isn’t likely to be having sex, is she? Aster told me that she and Saito had a fight. Not a fight with punches, I mean a screaming match. Apparently Saito thinks she was irresponsible to go back to real life for a long weekend just for an anime convention…or something like that. I didn’t get much of it. Aster was more interested in insulting the Counter Guardians then giving me details. But she did tell me that Tash had locked herself in her room. If anyone is going near Tash’s room tonight, can you check on her? Aster said she could hear crying. I tried to check on her, but she just told me to go away.
So then I went to find Claire, because Claire is lovely and she always listens to me…and Michael gives me cookies. Anyway, I went to their room…yeah you guessed it. They’re occupied too. I did see Combee however. She tried to eat my hair. She said I smelt of strawberries. I gave her a cuddle, and that made me feel a bit better. She’s so sweet. I think she’s the reason I got a cavity last week…
The only other person I could think of was Valerie…but Danielle told me that she had gone somewhere with Kuroneko, and didn’t know when she’d be back. So I’m here, posting instead.
By the way, if anyone sees my acrylic box, can you let me know? I think I left it somewhere near the suffragette section.
I suppose I should explain why I’m so upset. Harriet called me to her office a few hours ago. She told me that because I’m eleven now, and since she’s brought my English and maths and stuff up to scratch, I should go to secondary school in September. Proper school, as she called it. She says it’ll be good for me. I need to meet people my own age, and learn how to behave around them normally. She’s already found a school. Its in some fandom that I don’t remember (the storyline takes place at another school though, so I shouldn’t be affected by it).
Its not fair. I like the teaching she gives me. I don’t have to worry about much. And I get more time to mess around in the Library. And I’ve heard what some of the other agents say about their schools. They’re not nice places. I don’t know if I want to go there if people are going to be horrible. I’ve never been to school before. I don’t know what to do, and I’m worried everyone will laugh at me.
I told Harriet this, and she just said “everyone feels like that when they go to secondary school. But they’re all new too”. I asked what was wrong with the teaching I got here, and she said nothing, but there were some things that homeschooling doesn’t teach you – like how to interact with people your own age. There’s nothing wrong with the way I behave around people. I hang around with people in the Library all the time. I know how to act.
I don’t understand it. I don’t understand any of it. It feels like I’m being pushed away. And I hate it. It sucks.
If anyone wants me I’ll be in the Manta.